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Name: Zi Shu
Interests: Dance, Musik, Singin, Drawin, Video Gamez, anime, basketball,Hanging wit Friendz, my wife JENNIFER!!!!!!!!!!!
Expertise: Art, sum auto mechanics, computers, singing, martial arts, givin JENNIFER the time of her life!!!
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|I have finally allowed the Holy Spirit to enter in me.|
I hope all congregations of fellow Christians accept me as well as others.
As I walked in the water, my testimony is given to those open Christian hearts and ears.
5 years ago in 2004, in my dream, I walk into a big grassy meadow field. It is surrounded by brown fences. In front of the gates stands Jesus with His bright light. He opened the gates and says unto me, "Come my child, I am the Shepherd, you are my sheep."
I walk toward Jesus and I then awake in real world.
From that point on I knew Jesus is my savior, and the Son of God. I became a Christian follower.
Today I have became part of the Holy Spirit in Baptism, as with others fellow Christians. Today I am told to let everyone know for the glory of God that He is alive and here, watching, guiding, and protecting us!
There is a war out there before the creation of time between God and Satan. Do not give up your faith, keep fighting to stay on the right path towards God, allow Jesus to show you the way. The world began with God, and it shall end with God the original supernatural force. God Bless
|I really had to record this into a journal. This was really strange.|
I had just gotten home from work, at about 6:50am. I parked my car next to the mailbox, in front of my house as the usual routine.
After I had turned off everything, I then left the keys in the ignition. I remember looking at my dog then.
Next thing I know, I'm driving to some random apartment. Two people whom I cannot remember were around. I think they were in the car with me or outside. They said they had something to do. I remember them mentioning something about 2 missiles and A. They left my sight. I believe I then pulled out my phone and opened it up.
This part is where it gets strange... My conscience had told me (or someone else) to quickly wake up out of the dream. As if I felt I was in some type of perilous situation. I then sat still for a sec, and force my mind to wake up. I remember moving one of my arms around.
Viola! I woke up!?! I must of dozed off because of the lack of sleep lately. I am now back right in front of my house. I tell myself what a strange quick dream, though what threw me in shock is when I felt something in my hand. I looked down and WHAM, there goes my phone. It was in the same position I had it in my dream. Okay, I do NOT remember pulling out of my phone before I went off into dreamland. I never take out my phone when I am ready to leave the car. If I did pull out the phone, what in the world for?
This situation can simply be explained by my unconscious brain just pulling out my phone like I did in the dream, coincidentally because I believed the dream was real.
Wow that's strange, I just checked my phone and it said I called my buddy Gerald at 6:38AM, he probably was annoyed at that "haha". The side of my knee in which the pocket the phone was in must of pressed on the phone by accident and causing it to dial Gerald's number... wait that doesn't make sense what the hell? The phone says the call lasted for 57s. My phone is quite difficult to navigate around to dial anyone's contact number. The other thing is my phone goes into keyguard after 15 secs, in which it isaid the last time I had used my phone was 21 mins before. This could all be unrelated being that I believe I arrived at the front of my house at 6:50.
When I woke up, I looked at the car's clock which said 7:11AM+.
Is this all strangely connected? Why did my conscious tell myself to wake up? Why did I pull my phone out in the dream which happened in real life at the exact same time possibly? I never do that kind of "sleep walking", and I've never sleep walk before. How did Gerald's number get dialed without me noticing, even though the time I dreamt was a 12 mins + after 6:38AM.
I need to get to the bottom of this. I am going to try and call Gerald up later today to see his response, besides I haven't spoke with him in about 2 months.
Team Xerguelras All the wayzz
|Just in case you all are wondering, yes I am still alive! That's if anyone cares.|
I am suffering from a type of hernia in an area where my appendix is, it hurts! It's what happen when I over train myself.
Things are going okay, somewhat slow. I need to pick up the pace. I am currently helping Breeze revive "The Slime Show", by sketching some scenes for him.
Xer finally bought himself a Wii, I got to admit, Nintendo Wii is fun.
Miguel is going on a missionary to Brazil soon, I've donated $100 to him. He will be there for 14 months. Sucks I won't be seeing him for another long time with barely any contact. I promised him by the time he returns back to the USA, he will be in time for the premiere of "In Time of Dreams".
I currently watch Hayate No Gotoku here and there.
Wu Fei slouches around here and there.
I currently play Cabal Online, I had given up Maplestory 2 months ago.
ZiShu is my name on Cabal Online.
Things have been repeditive everyday. Me and Xer have been trying to find time to go out and search for apartments.
I've been living in this big house wit my little sister and some girl, and my dog. Though most of time I'm home alone.
I am still looking for a part-time day job while currently throwing papers with decent money. I work on my affiliated marketing here and there, haven't made any sells yet, building things up slowly.
Alright that's it for now everyone, peace out and God Bless.
Team Xerguelras all da wayz!
|FINALLY, at 11:30AM it hink.. not sure but i leved up 120 on Maple Story,a nd became a Hero, YES!!!|
after freaken 10 months.. of hard work.. i gain some and lost some friends..
alot has happened... i put a video of it on youtube by the way
i takni my lil bro and lil sister Juu to go see Prince caspian wit xer and Miguel, TEEZI!!
Keep faith in Jesus tho the world is suffering....
God Bless all those who had been lost in Cyclones and Earthquakes...
something is coming.... we must prepare
God Bless and Peace outt
Team Xerguelras allt he wazz
|i've been startin to lose my blessings|
if u could tell from the title.. this isnt gonna be a good entry
life for me right now is.. well boring.. and confusing.. like everyhting thats been keepin me happy has come to a halt..
i realize i'm goin nowhere, it doesnt help that in 5 months my family will be movin to Kentucky then 6 months after Cambodia... where will i be?
i would like to stay in Nashville.. but i dont knoe if ic an make it in time..
ive been lazy to find another part time job for the day.. or its the fact i dont want to work for small wages, the bigger ones require experience i do not have
the last 2 months ive been goin through nothing but bad luck one after another
its gettin tough, and will be tougher when my family leaves and i am here away from them.. tho its a choice a made
even if i have money to get myself together.. i still dont have everything i want or need
i get depressed sometimes, and lately its gettin to me more.. havent been this way for long time
i just believe im not where i should be,a nd i'm the only one stoppin myself.. i'm annoyed at myself..
i cannot find enough motivation to pick up my pencil and use imagination to create my world...
ive been thinkni lately.. my two most important friends, or "bros" that i consider.. wat do i mean for them? like how important am i for their life... originally they were my motivation to create a never -ending utopian world
however here and there our links have been broken...
and then there's that thing of love.. i cant find it and it will not find me, so i ignore it, cuz i believe it isnt my time yet.. only girls important to me are my nieces and sisters... and few friends
i want wat everyone else wants... a wealthly life
i need wat everyone else should need... hope..... God... or in my case Jesus..
i feel ive been breakin away from Him alot lately... i dont even try to make it to church anymore..
i barely pray anymore, neither do i read the bible..., but whenever i see or hear His name.. time freeze and words and images come into my head...
what am i doin... it feels like a ocean wave moving up and down, my life keeps repeatedly goin bak and for to bad and good things but never too high or too low... its like then traveling through a loop of time, i go to the end to come bak to the beggining.. not a new one.. but the same old one..
my family worries that i will end up eventually in the streets.. no future.. no life
i type in this thing today cuz it helps me .. to eventualyl come up wit an Epiphany...
i still do beileve that before end of this year... eiether way.. things are gion to change... drastically..
i have been gettin bak to watchin anime again.. becuz they also were my treasure of motivation..
i think sometimes the krazyness tries to return to me.. i believe ive been hearin something tryin to catch me.. or mainly in my dreams.. keep tryin to tell me something, they are all linked to each other strangely.. i keep havin to sleep alot.. something keeps tryin to get me to sleep all the time.. i spend half of the day sleep and not enough time to do anything else... some sort of image of a very seductive female keep showin up in my head, its wearing me out.. , did i ever mention i hate my basement room downstairs?
i do not give up hope yet.. well i dont believe i ever will.. tho it feels at times some knid of feelin of darkness crashes down deep into me to where it makes me reminense of the teenage suicidal time
however in that case i kick bak into to think, suicide.. wat the piont of that.. i not gonna get wat i want if i did that, no point in gettin depressed to just end up dead.. i get depressed to realize wat i'm doin wrong
im always a fighter, barely a lover.. so i will fight, i still have hope, and i beileve i awlays will
k bak to.. watchin or readin or writin or drawin soemthing..
peace out for now
Team Xerguerlas allt he wayz